In the meantime we are moving. I sold my home. Too many stairs, too steep. I could not even carry my own groceries in. We bought a smaller, but still cute home two hours south from Oakland.

My advice to many of my clients “learn to tolerate ambiguity” is now my own lesson. Ambiguity is hard to tolerate. Waiting for a loan to come through, nerve breaking. Dealing with paperwork, serious boredom and fear.

Diana Paxson and I have been working on Goddess in the Office rewrite and enhancement. Some say do not use the word “office” anymore, say “own” work; the future will have less workers in the office and more online elsewhere. What do you think?

My autobiography was held up too. Diana Paxson and I got a strong beginning, but I have not really dealt with the reflections and examination of my mission in life; when and how did I fall into this Goddess mission. I have however written up a lot of Forest Gump moments, all the funnies. But the meat of a good Ab is the reflections, the curve, the hindsight of how this life evolved. What were the forces that drove it. For some reason I couldn’t quite face it. But now I can.

When I visited in Budapest this summer, I looked at the house where I was born, the bunkers  dark musty entrance to a life underneath the ground during the mass carpet bombings. I sobbed my eyes out for the little girl who was so brave and had her childhood ruined by the WWII.

It’s like my eyes have been opened, and I can look back and not be afraid.

In Glastonbury, I gave a speech about politics and spirituality. Yes, and the British gave me a standing ovation! I don’t remember getting a standing ovation for a long time.

My life was driven by politics, the Hungarian Revolution that opened up the boarders and I could escape. The help the Goddess Boldogasszony gave me, how her touch was all over my story. Now can be told.

But most of all I think the collective story of everlasting wars, the patriarchs depend on for their power is the main driving force of many lives. Wars waged over my house, the total loss of everything we had, the deaths of all grandparents, the starvation which all wars bring. And then the commies with their lies.

Many of these features are back again. This time here in the USA.

The political enviromement is very bad now for women everywhere, especially the young. Young women cannot stay stupid and let nature take its course because Nature is impersonal, she cares about making babies even when you don’t. She gave you brains. It’s up to your smarts to know your body, have some wisdom determining when you could or want to bear a child. No matter what the GOP is doing to abortion rights, girls, you always have herbs. You can have a quickening with many of the herbs free, but you cannot wait until it’s to late. Pennyroyal, Rue, just to name a few. A cup of tea at the time when you’re due and your period will return. No abortion clinics needed. No doctors if you are smart. If you ever look at a Mexican community, right in font of a home, a woman would plant a Ruta (Rue) plant, for good luck. Yeah right.

But the war now, this economic war, is directed against USA kids. The police are back serving the powerful. So is the Media. They are as mean and as lawless they were in the sixties. And no matter how dreadful they behave, they will never go to jail because they are trained to be mean. You are lucky if they don’t water-board you.

The media? We lost the media in the middle of the Information Age. You can only get what’s going on via the Internet on the uTube.

Regular media didn’t even cover the Wall Street confrontations, but you did mercifully dear MSNBC and Current TV.

Back in the sixties at least the battle made the cover of Time Magazine, when the hard hats attacked the long haired hippies. This too happened on Wall Street way back. Brilliant choice of targeting…  Wall Street.

Not a word was on CNN, instead it was all about poor Michael Jackson and how he died poor lonely soul. Goddess bless and rest him, but this trial is not Situation Room news! The situation was the Wall Street police brutality once more against the young and their supporters. The young deserves a future. They are demonstrating because they are smart, figured it out, money is the only god in the USA. All the biblical blah blah is meaningless; the same Xian politicians send the police to beat up our kids for practicing their rights as citizens.

Wall Street where millionaires are still “working” shuffling other peoples money around, themselves do not produce anything at all. These are our “middle class” that’s not working, and doesn’t want to. They invest.

And they don’t care about the working people. Nobody ever got rich for working for wages for others.

American workers, goddess bless them, are a diminishing breed.

Their jobs have been outsourced by greedy corporations. We are sinking into the third world status fast. Our infrastructure is crumbling, and there is nowhere to run anymore. I cannot become a refugee again.

There are folk who worship share holders and CEOs. None of them are in the Bible; politicians however worship them for they need money to get those government jobs, with the lifelong benefits. Senators, Congress people, all need the millionaires largess to create their commercials, and sell their story to the voters who don’t have time to research their records.

I have an idea. I am sure you heard it before.

Let’s give each viable candidate an hour free airtime (it’s the people’s air), do with it what they want. Commercials. Debates. The works.

After that time no more exposure. You can make your case just before elections, not for years preceding it.

The GOP candidates looked to me like lined up like fancy beggars, with no helpful ideas, all having the same script to mouth from. Even their buzzwords are the same. It’s one campaign with many boring pale faces. Mr. Green even appears white to me.

The winners are the freeloading  billionaires. They pay no taxes, what’s that all about???

GOP are faithful servants of the Koch brothers. They swear oaths to them, sign their names to pledges. Lick their boots and their fat asses.

It’s treason.

After all didn’t they take a more sacred oath to the people as they have taken their seats?

Love to you. And thank you Oakland for giving me a good life and happy memories.

Dianic Tradition: www.Dianic.org

The Queen of the witches is back!

This year Z Budapest rolls up her sleeves to teach us the importance of Divination in Women’s Spirituality!

Z calls it a Tarot Social Intensive weekend; a new and inspired way of consulting the Fates and each other as priestesses. Everyone gets a full-spread Tarot reading!

It matters not whether you are an advanced seeker or a beginner with a fresh new deck, this Goddess weekend is devoted to study and first-hand experiences of the Tarot’s wisdoms.

Goddess women, sister priestesses, women who love the earth … come share and learn from Z, the wise woman who legalized Tarot Reading and all forms of Divination and Prophecy in this countr y. She fought for the rights of all women to legally counsel each other using the tool of the Fates and our own innate psychic abilities. If you’ve wanted to tap into your own abilities, now is the time!

Intensely personal, always political, Z Budapest uses her humor and sharp wit to share stories of women using the Tarot to heal their sisters. She will lead you on an inner journey that will bring you face-to-face with the power of the Fates through the Tarot.

Day One we will get to know each other a little, but wasting no time we jump right into the Tarot. Bring your Tarot decks if you have them; don’t worry if you don’t. We will look at all of these decks and Z will show you insights that will help you to know the true tools of the psychic Tarot Reader. The day ends with women’s ritual and the summoning of the Fates and the Goddess Binah.

Day Two we gather in the morning and begin again and this time the journey is an amazing one of personal introspection as each woman gets her cards read by Z personally while the priestesses hold sacred space for her. There are tears. There is laughter. There are insights into yourself as the Fates whisper into Z’s ear what they want Z to tell you. And again, we end the day with a deeply personal women’s ritual; seeing each other for the Goddess women we are. We are a sisterhood.

Day Three bring pen and paper because you’re going to participate in a most unusual activity that tweak your perceptions of what Tarot Reading is and how it applies to our daily lives. Then, we come together as kindred sister spirits and close our weekend together in ritual know we are more connected and loved for having gone through this Tarot Social experience together.

Register online
or via mail, to:
Wise Woman Center PO Box 64 Woodstock NY 12498

REGISTRATION POLICY: Once you register we will send you a map and further details.

REFUND POLICY: If you cancel more than two weeks (15 days or more) before the workshop, we are able to offer you a full refund minus a $25 office fee. If you cancel within two weeks (14 days or less) of the workshop, we will be happy to apply your payment (minus a $25 office fee) to any other class at the Wise Woman Center. No show; no refund; non-negotiable. You may transfer your payment to another person at any time, no extra charge.

CONTACT US: Wise Woman Center PO Box 64 Woodstock NY 12498 E-MAIL:susunweed@herbshealing.com

Blessings Sisters in Goddess!

We are pleased to announce our Goddess Festival Special for the the month of August 2010.

In the month of August only!
We are offering women who register for the Goddess Festival a FREE one year membership into the Susan B. Anthony Coven #1 … the world’s most famous coven!

Membership into the Susan B. Anthony Coven #1 is $50. So you’re getting a savings of $50! Plus, once a member of the SBA, you will find savings on classes worth more than the cost of your membership!

It’s a WIN-WIN!!! You get to come to the Goddess Festival and become a Susan B. Anthony Coven #1 Sister in Goddess … and you help raise funds for the Women’s Spirituality Forum.

The Women’s Spirituality Forum is an IRS 501(c)3 non-profit. Your registration fees and your membership are tax deductible.

* SBA Special pricing ends Sept. 1, 2010

Being provocative, promiscuous and hedonistic does not make one truly free. On the contrary, in a society marred with addictive behaviours, and gender roles determined by social conditioning, these so called “PAGAN BEHAVIOURS AND EXPRESSIONS of FREE-SPIRITEDNESS” are merely the end product of EXPECTED GENDER ROLES FULFILLED by men and women bound by the ways of a one-dimensional, patriarchal society.

The Truth of the matter for me, personally, is that Dianic Witchcraft starts to move into the dangerous terrain of the primordial wild wommon realms in ways that ask us to shift our minds towards more vast paradigms of interaction and living; this is a frightening prospect for most “liberated pagans” because of the accountability it

requires of each individual within the Great Cosmick Scheme of things to be truthful in our modes of Being in ways that do not win popularity contests!

Dianic Witchcraft calls forth a way of perceiving Existence that invokes multi-dimensional awareness – calling for personal expansion and innovation of  Self on an Altruistic, Transpersonal Level. It calls for a total surrender to deeper portals of being in which we take accountability for the Ancient sexual self that evades simple, pre-packaged modes of behaviour, or socially acceptable expressions of “desirability” in us.

Dianic Witchcraft is the TRUE HEART of Witchcraft for me, personally.

There is no more dangerous a place to be in than  in the heart, mind and Soul realms of the Dianic Feminist Witch. She moves and shakes… challenges herself and her sisters with love to strive beyond even our OWN internal “cliques” and conformity behaviours so as to shake down the  shackles that relentlessly attempt to bind the Wild Wommon’s SOUL. Furthermore, the Dianic Witch is an ECSTATIC, Life-Force Driven, Shadow-work tempered, radical WARRIORESS of DIVINE Hag-worthy Nature whose vision speaks of Woman’s experience on her own Terms!

This is threatening to many.

Women are counseled by women,  and it is determined by women, for “WOMAN” alone. This Woman’s Mysteries-Honouring Nature to Dianic Witchcraft is jealously attacked by a grasping world that works in infinitesimal ways to distract WOMAN from true RE-MEMEBERANCE via mundane housework, benign task duties benefiting others, child rearing, and the like. Women, furthermore, are raised “to please”, and bring this energy into the Pagan Realms while carrying the Christian hangover of fear conditioned into their Souls to be good, desirable little priestesses and to serve their LORDS!

Forgive me, but this Dianic Feminist Witch shall not undermine the Complex Beauty, and multi-dimensional Nature of her own Soul! Wimmin have too many of their own fantasies to RE-MEMBER, and to celebrate on her own terms, and I intend to dedicate my Life to enabling exactly that.

ALL HAILS TO DIANIC WITCHCRAFT!!!!!!

BB

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Lady RO!

I chose the Protection of Person, House and Car spell from Patriarchal Oppression… the reason I chose this spell is that I had a need to release myself from negative male energy that was around me.  Don’t get me wrong, I do not want to rid myself of men (I have 3 boys)… just the negative energy I am experiencing.

I planned ahead to do this spell and I did it when the moon was waning on Friday.

I went to the local store and procured items needed for this spell  that I did not already have, which were the lemon verbena and fresh basil. I already had frankincense and myrrh incense, and the egg.

Below is my account of working this most powerful spellcasting that Z had shared with us:

I cleaned the whole cottage,washed and changed the bedding, and also washed the windows and the floor ( I have all redwood plank flooring, no carpet).

I prepared my dish of water in which I had steeped the lemon verbena. I had new white candles on my altar and another candle prepared for later in the evening when I went to bed.

After I had cleaned I stood next to my altar, lit the incense and my 2 white altar candles. I grounded and centered myself and meditated on the Goddess for a bit.  Then, I took my egg and and my sharpie, and wrote my name on the egg three times.

As directed in the spell from the Holy Book page 47 – I passed the egg through the incense while reciting the words Z shared with us.  As I said them I must say I felt very powerful and when it came to the last two sentences,  as I spoke them aloud it was with the power and the truth of the Goddess!  I meant what I said, I believed it would come to pass and my intent was very strong. I DO NOT want any negative male energy anywhere near me, or my home!  I placed the egg on my altar and took the incense to my door.

I have one doorway to my cottage from which the wind blows and that is the front door facing the ocean. I opened it and felt the power of the tides and the Goddess, and placed the incense in my open doorway in the threshold.

On my stove was my Grandmother’s large cast iron pot,  which I use as my large cauldron when needed.  I had the hot water in which I had steeped the basil and I proceeded to mop my floors with this water – all the while feeling empowered and blessed and thinking of only happiness, joy and good fortune to cross my threshold.  It felt very cleansing! I actually felt peace as the incense wafted through, the smell of the basil and the ocean in front of me!

After I had finished the floor, I took the bowl in which I had prepared the water and verbana, and walked through the cottage sprinkling it in every corner  saying a  blessing at each.  Although my cottage is small, this took some time as I wanted to be sure I did every single corner.

I placed the bowl back on my altar and took the incense from my threshold and walked around my cottage outside three times and I drew pentagrams of protection on all windows and doors.  As my car is parked right in front of the cottage,  I also did my car inside and out.

I brought the incense back in and placed it on my altar. I then took the egg and I buried it under a large rosemary plant that is right next to my front door to the left.  Anyone coming to my door must pass this magickal plant of protection!  I came inside, closed my door and allowed the space to be filled with the fresh smells of the basil, verbana and the incense still burning on the altar.

I left the incense and candles to burn down. That evening I cleaned up my altar (I poured the used basil and verbana water outside into the earth, and thanked the Goddess for their use this day) and before bed, took a white candle in a glass container (for safety) and lit it and placed it on my altar. I did a Self Blessing (found on page 120 in the Holy Book)  in front of my altar. I went to bed and left the candle to burn.

In the morning, I buried all three candles used in this spell outside.

We shall see as the days continue how this protection spell has served me in regard to this situation!  If anything, I feel more protected and my home feels very peaceful. And while doing this spell I felt great empowerment, determination and peacefulness. It was a long spell to do, but it was a cleansing that brought me to a place that made me feel not only my home was cleansed from the inside out, but my being as well!

Blessed Be to Z for sharing these timeless truths with us in the Holy Book!

All over Mother Earth, sisters will gather to pay respect to the solar energies of abundance. The Goddess is heavy with pregnancy, just like her crops. This is the perfect moment for herbs, both cultivated and wild, are at their greatest potency. Summer Solstice is the time for celebration of the Goddess’ power over men. Remember to connect through sexuality, abundance, and by embracing new ideas. Go outside to celebrate the sun. Have a blessed Summer Solstice Sisters.

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